Healing, Heartbreaks, Reflections

Self Confidence

As an entrepreneur, as a mother, as a friend, as a woman, I realized in this world. You can please no one and also a lot of naysayers who will be there to bring you down, be it whether the person is your family, friend, or even no one in relevancy to you.

End day after being through this phase, I just realised the most important thing is how you feel about it yourself.

I used to think about getting validation from people closed to me aka close kins but I realised they do not walk the same path as me, neither they have the same experience and focus on the same subject matters thus… after so long;

The real validation will come from me, myself. πŸ˜‰

Jiayou everyone! Just keep on trying!

Crypto, Healing, Heartbreaks, Reflections, VFood

3 Months Break

Decided to make it or break it and thus left NTUitive/ NAMIC in Apr 2021 to help to pave ways for the family business despite perhaps I know this ain’t an easy journey and at the same time, took a break to work on myself, mental health and reassessing my path forward.

And then I realised – things will never work out the way it is despite how much you have planned including your back up plans.

1 week before I left NTUitive, my crypto trading went beyond the negative for the first time as I didn’t pay attention to my stop losses plan. For short trade, it’s heart breaking but I decided to HODL. And the best, R crashed my car and I just need to bring forward to scrap it. (Edited to include that he went on well and survived the crash. Er hmm.)

1 week after I left NTUitive, the spike in the community cases and clusters made me foresee a dejavu which honestly is driving me nuts due to the incident that happened last year that left me with trust issues with relationships ever since. I told myself that I will fight and win this war but internally, it gave me insomnia and etc. Thank god for my closest kins standing by me and distracting me wherever possible.

My said concerns were formalized with the Phase 2 Heightened Alert aka semi lockdowns. I’m forever amazed with the names that the Government has come up with, the circuit breaker, etc.

Took the whole month trying to find the right business model, right fit and also, spending time with the kiddos and the trying to upskill my knowledge. Decided that I need to really focus on agile methodologies to focus on matters thus I signed up for the course – Certified Scrum Master by NTUC Learning Hub (RTP: S$214) as I have utilized my Skillsfuture credits, I’m glad that I’m still eligible to get an one-off subsidy from NTUC UTAP programme and only paid S$107 to attend this.

This decision was made when I am thinking hard to push forward with my Masters or just, going through the skillsets based programme. Went for the latter as I’m afraid that I couldn’t commit with my careers and kids and I believed that academic credentials is important but being “human” and humane definitely bring it to another level. πŸ™‚

Took these months to catch up on things that I couldn’t afford to do when I was in a full-time job and managing kids and finally made the efforts to declutter the house.

Check out my decluttering list via https://t.me/decluttersbylynn

Went to catch up with a few friends when Government announced Phase 3 Heightened Alert where dining for 2 has been made possible. Also went for a dinner with R at newly opened Saute Sushi at Paya Lebar Square. Love their menu and the train conveyor belt that enhanced the whole dining experience. Hopefully as people are more conscious about the health and climate change, people will swing over to a healthier and vegetarian/ vegan diet. πŸ™‚

Check out their spread and their prices are priced at an affordable pricing. πŸ™‚ Currently, no reservations can be made and we queued for 30 mins (BFF queued for 50 mins) prior to get the seats.

Honestly, hope things get better for Singapore and looking forward to better years ahead. πŸ™‚

During these 3 months, I learnt to be a better person and definitely shall not lower my standards from this moment on. πŸ™‚ Empowering mind, empowering lives.

Healing, Heartbreaks, Rants

Reflections

Singapore is moving towards Phase 2 after months from the announcement of Circuit Breaker.

This Circuit Breaker taught me alot. From facing the utmost challenge of having my heart broken and shattered into million pieces to picking myself up. It was never an easy feat and I never thought these 6 months would had changed me drastically.

The thoughts had taunted me till this very moment and will continue to do so till I had officially healed and hopefully from this, I will come out stronger and better as an individual, entrepreneur, mother, daughter and a sister.

I will try my best and give my best shot. Words are cheap and indeed, actions speak louder. As we moved onto Phase 2, we must remember not to be complacent and take things for granted. Self control and discipline are important across all aspects of life.

Till date, do take good care. β€οΈπŸ’‹